7 months, I've been bed-ridden for 7 months, yet still not much improvement on spinal activity, still can't move my lower parts, but I still have faith that You won't forget me, You will one day heal me and let me stand up to glorify You. After 26/12/12, I keep waiting for Your miraculous miracle to happen, never lose faith.
Honestly, I did lose my faith on Him before when I'm admitted into ICU at Sibu hospital. It was one day after my surgery been done. Why admitted? Because my right lung collapsed due to bacteria infection, I was diagnosed to have hospital-acquired pneumonia, had breathing difficulties and need to be on ventilation machine. The time in ICU was so hard for me, I couldn't move and I couldn't call for people at all, because the ventilator tube was at the vocal chord through mouth. I struggled and fainted few times there, then I was diagnosed to have bradycardia too. Need to use IV dopamine to keep my heartbeat rate normal. Pneumonia+bradycardia, it's so hard and I blamed, scolded Him for don't care me, made me suffer from infections and paralysis. I even wanted Him to just take me back Home so I can be freed from sufferings once and for all. Although there were pastors visited and prayed for me, but that time I completely lose faith to Him, completely.
As time passes, I transferred 4 times, from Sibu hospital to Mount Elizabeth Medical Centre, Singapore to Miri hospital to Kuching hospital then back to Miri hospital. I believed I've a little bit of recovery since I can feel hungry. It started when I was in Kuching but my belly still no feeling yet, so He didn't don't care me at all, He was slowly healing me!
Today 7/8/13, I'm still full of faith that He will heal me completely and make me stand up again. Don't lose faith although it might be medically impossible! Amen! =]
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